What Do You Want?

So, I sit here writing a paper for my marketing strategy class and a thought crosses my mind. What do you want more than anything in your life? It doesn't take much for me to come up with a few answers. I want, to make a difference. I want my nieces and nephews to be proud of me. I want my nieces to see me and know they can do ANYTHING they set their minds to do. I want my nieces to know that they can accomplish anything that a male can even if it takes a little extra effort. I want my nephews to want wives that are like me (and some of their mothers. I'm sorry I can't just say "and their mothers" so that they are all included). I want all of my family to be happy. All of them. I want happiness and peace for everyone I hold dear.

For my husband......I want to make him proud. I know that he is proud of me in many ways, but I think there is so much more. I want all of my family to know that they are important in my life and are loved.

I want the job that isn't just a job, but a career. I want to realize my every dream. Every. Single. One.

I want everyone to have a desire for SOMETHING. So I ask you..........What do you want?

Light At the End of the First Tunnel

Well, I can finally see it. Light at the end of the tunnel. Well, the first tunnel at least. I love academia. I love to learn. But I'm more than a little tired right now. I'm glad that I am close to realizing at least one of my dreams, earning my Masters degree. I've worked hard. Juggling work, school, and home life is indeed difficult. Fortunately, my better half has always been supportive and willing to step in an try to lighten my load in any way he thinks will be helpful. You might say, we've both worked hard. At the end of this upcoming semester I will have earned an MSM in Health Care Administration. Once I've done that, I can rest for a minute.....only a minute. I think I'll take a semester or two off so that I can relax (and unpack a few more boxes), decide what I will do in regards to W.I.L.D., and have a bit of fun. Now I'm not going to take too much time laying in the cut. I only have a year and a half left to earn my second Masters (I need 3 classes but they'll only allow me to take one class per semester for my MBA).

So, I'm going to go out this semester with a bang. My goal? Ace It All.

I'm looking forward to it.

This Day in History

This is a day that many (including myself) never thought would come in this lifetime. I am so happy to be wrong. This is a memorable day for many reasons. There is a unification move taking place. This was most evident on election day when our now President Barack Obama was elected as the 44th President of this great nation. It was in full bloom today as I looked at the diverse crowd in Washington waiting to share in this historic event.

President Obama's election into office will resound in the African American community for many years to come. It can no longer be said that there will never be a "Black President" in the United States because that challenge has been met. President Obama will serve as a role model for all youth in this country, but especially those African American youth who were limited in their vision of what they could accomplish based on the history of this country. Today, history has officially been changed and dreams have been broadened.

No more limitations of ones dreams. No more excuses for those failing to work towards greatness. This day in history will forever sit in my mind and heart as a constant nudge to continue to strive for greatness regardless of the obstacles that I may face. I hope it motivates you to continue on your path to greatness. I wish you well in your endeavors.

Change has come.

Coming To A Close

*sings* I'm so glad we had this time togetherrrr.

Well, we are at the end of yet another year. I'm always amazed at the end of the year at how much I didn't accomplish. This year is no different. To that end, I haven't bothered to think of things I'd like to accomplish in 2009. Instead, I'm going to go out on a limb and play it by ear, work with the same verve with which I always work & hope for the best.


Maybe you'll do the same. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

All the best in 2009.

So Much to Do, So Little Time

Wow, It has been a looooong time since my last visit here. My list of things I want to accomplish is getting longer and longer. Unfortunately, when the list is too long sometimes things either fall by the wayside or result in subpar work. This for me is NOT acceptable. So, how does one rectify the situation? Answer, I HAVE NO IDEA. No, really, I have no idea. So, what will be my next move? First, I'm going to finish unpacking the boxes that I haven't unpacked yet, and finish organizing my closet and my kitchen. I also need to paint (but this is not a priority). That's a start, I'll have to see exactly what is left for me to take care of before the new semester starts (that includes looking for and identifying a new job).

Eating Cornstarch... - Lipstick Alley

Eating Cornstarch... - Lipstick Alley

No Air

The Jordan Sparks & Chris Brown song "No Air" makes me scratch my head. Was I EVER so fickle to believe that without A "male" in my life I couldn't breath? Maybe it's the foolishness of today's misguided youth. Or, maybe it's the thought of being so much in love that the idea of continuing to breath is more than a mind can conceive. Give me a break (and pass me A barf bag and something to settle my stomach) at such a re-darn-diculous notion. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm as romantic (or "romantical" as John Leguizamo said in his stand up act) as the next woman, but why in the world would you give anyone that much power?

Dreams

How many of us have them? If we are lucky we all do.

Moving Ahead or Just Moving?

I am so not a mover. I am a settle in and get comfortable and grow roots type of person. So, with this in mind, why am I so determined in my desire to "move ahead?" Why not be content where I am in this moment in time? I would say, it is because I know there is something better, more challenging, more mentally stimulating down the line and complacincy just doesn't feel right. So, am I working on moving ahead or just plain old moving?

YouTube - Amerie - Gotta Work [Official Video]

Quit or Press Forward

So, at what point must one realize it's a lost cause? Do you continue? Business as usual or keep on pressin' on? See, I'm conflicted. Part of me feels that I've fought "the good fight" and should just stop before I'm too far in without a toe hold. But then there's that "other" part of me that refuses to quit. She's driven. A vehicle all her own. Hard headed. It'll take more then a brick wall to stop me from reaching my goal. A motivated visionary who can reach out her hand and just about touch the next step. She. Is me.

Trying to Tread Water While Drowning In Tears

I've been working SO hard this semester and getting what feels like nowhere. My plan went awry early in the semester and rebounding just doesn't seem to be in the cards. I'm almost paralyzed with fear that I will fail this semester. What should I do?

WOW

It's a sobering feeling when you find out that you've changed your educational and career goals for someone else, and they would NOT have done the same for you.

Musing While Layin in the Cut

There are times when I wonder whether or not it's time to go. The fact that leaving is even a question makes me wonder "what's REALLY good?" Why am I here? What does the future hold? How long must I wait for my true direction to manifest itself TO ME?

I'm in relax and lay in the cut mode right now. However, January will be here sooner than I know. I'd better get with it and finish one of my books before that time comes.

Next Level

Well, I'm done. I've finally finished earning my degree in Business Management. *WHEW* It was a long HARD road. Sometimes the road was MUCH harder than I expected it to be but I dug in, stuck with it, and got it done. I'm on to my next academic feat. The plan is to obtain degrees at the University of Maryland University College simultaneously. My majors will be Business Management and Human Resources. Yep, I seem to be a glutton for punishment. THAT is part of the next level.

The other part of the next level is to make some positive career changes. I'm presently looking outside of NY for another gig. Taking a gig in another state will/may require leaving the hubby here in NY. Oh well, oh, well, a sistah has gotta do what she's gotta do if she wants to get ahead. It is what it is...I say that completely tongue in cheek since this is really one of the hardest moves I'll ever make. TRUST.

It's Been A Minute

Wow, I've been so busy I haven't been keeping up with my spot. I'll be back at some point and time this weekend to post an update *Holds hand up* Diva's Honor. Until then............peace.

Dedication and Focus

I've always been proud of myself because of the dedication and focus I have regarding my goals. However, lately, I'm slippin. I'm not working on my cookbook. I'm not working on my book of poems. I'm not working on my fiction novel. I'm doing schoolwork, but I'm doing it half assed. SO NOT ME. I'm a bit perplexed as to where my "dedication and focus" has gone. Am I really THAT burned out? I don't think I've EVER lost my focus. That concept just baffles me because I always thought focus was second nature to me. What must I do to rededicate myself and gain focus again? Faith without works is dead the bible says..........I can pray til I'm blue in the face but if ALL I'm doing is praying I can forget it. At this point, I feel that's the only thing I'm doing. Praying.

Tired

I am so, so very tired. Tired of studying constantly. Tired of working constantly. Tired of being stressed............constantly. I would absolutely LOVE to be able to just REST. I want to rest for a few days and not work, not pick up a school book. NOT be stressed. Just a few days to sit and write if I feel like it, read for recreational purposes if I feel like it, PAINT because I love it and it relaxes me IF I FEEL LIKE IT.

I write this entry as I should be writing papers for my African American Experience and Organizational Behavior classes. School ends on the 17th and I'm behind two assignments in each class. Can a sistah take a breath? I'm tired.

Ever Wonder.......

what would happen if you reached your fullest potential? I've wondered what would happen if I even came close. Sometimes I feel like a hamster in a wheel, constantly running and getting nowhere. And, when the stress of trying to progress gets to be too much, I want to scream "STOP THIS CRAZY THING AND LET ME OFF". Then I remember that I've set high standards for myself and they aren't beyond my grasp.